Slowing Heartbeats

I'm barely missing your intentions. What am I suppose to say? Am I supposed to tell you how wonderful I feel and the medications are doing great? I swear, there's nothing stopping your control. Or thirst for control. You make me sick and...well, you make me suicidal. Although I was already like that. You made it worse. You made it a thoughtful idea. I hate your guts and every atom in your body.

.Mildred.

That's what she wrote. That's what I found in the envelope from the mail-man. It hit me like a thunderbolt in the chest. How could she feel this way? How could you change her feelings so quickly? Had she always felt this way? Or was it from the medication she was taking? Either way, I was destined to get to the bottom of it. To get to the reason why she all of a sudden told me such nonsense. I had to sit there, and let the rage in my body cool for a minute. Reading was the only cure, but such as a letter as this made that seem putrid and insane.
"What did she say, Van? Anything...well spoken?" My son Wellman, walks into the room.
"She hates me..." he frowns, annoyance on his aged features.
"What's the cause now?" "Sanity is filtering into her useless brain. I thought we would have put enough serum into her skull to rid her of knowledge!!" Quincy walks through the oak doors, causing them to slam against the wall and shaking the entire laboratory. We don't fully know whether it's a female or a male creature. It's face, twisted into different dimensions, bringing out a disgusting look on it's face. Tall and rail-thin.
"Quincy leave well enough alone. She's of no use to us." Wellman returns, his carved face tilting at an angle.
"Only of use to me, Stupid." my lips quiver slightly.
"Shut up, we still have to get rid of her!! Can't your pathetic mind see how dangerous she is to us?! She hates Van's bloody guts. Not that I disagree with her on that, nonetheless. She will corrupt us. I know it."
"That shows how much you know, Quincy, you have no brain." my lovely son sticks his tongue out at the ogre.
"Don't do that, fool. I'll cut off your tongue and feed it to you." Wellman glares at him nervously before running head-over-tail up the staircase.
"You ruined my plot, Jackass. I could have done something...go away."
"Why?" "Because I said so. Because I created you. Because I will hurt you if you don't."
"Good enough for me." Quincy disappears.

♥♥My Sacrifice

Right Now. I feel loved.
so...like...i umm...posted this bulletin. right?
so..it wentt like: If you're my friend. Reply to this.
so..like................i received 2 messages from my friends: Kacey and Michele.
woooot! && then i talked to zack!!!
&& he doesnt hate me!!!! woooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i feel incredibly loved!!!
hehehehehehehehe

*giggle*

wooo....i love you, Joey!!!♥♥

i think i wanna end this blog entry....for now.

love you all!!